meh..

well folks, hope you had a happy halloween. then it'll have been better than mine, which started off well but then suddenly something happens and next thing you know your as depressed as you get and you don't know what to do next. it wasn't the greatest day of my life thats for sure, but hopefully i can move on, get over it and try to cheer myself up. i'm ok as long as im around someone but when alone or in my owwn head for too long i am just fundamentally unhappy with myself, i wish it could all be avoided from here on in. however it doesn't work that way. i'm drawn to the cause in a way i can't describe and my outer shell keeps all signs of unhappyness at bay until i'm alone again.