me and my stupid life

Im feeling quite lonely, even when im in a room full of people, im not sure what it is i'm supposed to do but it would be comforting to know its all gonna sort itself out. Most things in life usually do but it seems as if this problem has always been there and always will. i dont get as excited as most people over things like clubbing i'd be happier sat there with a drink watching everyone else have fun, but i dont want to be a buzzkill. also im not the nicest guy, not even close, i can be mean or annoying or both and its only to distract myself from myself, sometimes i think people are better off not knowing me. lets face it all i am is a jerk.